lost feeling

silently i made a promise to my self that i would not get my self to any relationship & somehow end up also telling my self that em better off with out anyone for the time being.. em so in denial..

and night can be so cold and lonely..
refusal made it worst..
the coming holiday dint just bring joy and warm..
it also bring loneliness 'to some..'

em good at throwing a side feeling as i dont know how to handle them.. and focus more to the matter in hand(work).. thus allowing the feeling to get lost within..

this heart is lonely..
this heart is cold..
this heart is empty..
this heart yearn for belonging..

*slap-self*
WTF maybe just go to sleep early.. 2moro will feel better..