such quietness

not really.. me brain was sorta screaming..

it's work.. it would have worked if only.. experience still needed but time is running out.. the urgency was only i alone who are concerned..

it's families.. the man whom I've known for more than 3 decade had ran off.. it's more than a month now.. some how deep down i kinda know this day would come..

and than the heart.. it thump hard when ever i think about her.. a chapter closed before it begin as always.. there are simply no communication.. don't know where/what can be done..

as for the rest me.. what ever remain of sanity.. are just doing the routine to try to survive another day..

grasping sand

had u held beach sands before?.. how do u hold or grip it.. if u held it on a open palm strong wind would have blown it away.. if u close ur plam.. not all can hold up all the sand and it's limited to the space inside ur palm.. and if u panic to grab all u can on it.. even more will fall off.. grasping sands.. no matter how u held on to it.. its still slipping away..

ask

ask... always ask.. things are.. life has too many guesses... u guess too much u start doing things by guessing.. but than again.. if u had known her/him that well guess u can guess.. but still never hurt to ask sometime.. u may have guessed the wrong answer..

feels weird

how would u express it?
if there's ever a words for it?

misinterpretation

a joke..
a group may get what's it mean.. and a few may think otherwise.. or could be the joke is on the person or the few.. and maybe its a group tease going on and you're laughing away without realize you're hurting the person or the few..

a conversation..
two was exchanging cynical remarks.. passerby may think both are not fond of each other.. both could be long time friends.. or what would u think when a female call another guy "dear" would you simply assume he would either her BF or husband? she not the only one call me "dear" in front of their husband.. you could share a comment to the person whom know ur manner.. than those comment could mean otherwise to others..

a thought..
you may wanna convey it.. you could say it, sing it, wrote it, draw it, paint it.. some may get it.. still it maybe interpreted wrongly.. or the person simply don't wanna listen to what u wanna say.. by than.. it doesn't matter what you do, the other person wont get it..

a fact
communicating one's thoughts and ideas could be lost, don't draw a conclusion too fast nor seal it.. ppl change and new fact and finding can give new meaning.. don't close your self..